Dealing with guilt after repeated repentance
“Many a times we do repentance and we mean it as well. But after a while we again end up either repeating the mistake or make new ones. This gives rise to guilty feeling to such a level that we fall in frustration.”Asked by آصف اقبال, جام نگر، گجرات
He answers at 31:33 in Tawbah-e-Nasuh (Sincere Repentance) · 3 min 25 sec
31:33Allah aap ko sehat de." Maulana ab sawal lena chahenge. aa yeh sawal bheja hai Jamnagar, Gujarat se Aasif Iqbal sahib ne. unhon ne likha hai: "Maulana many a times we do repentance and we mean it as well. But after a while we again end up either repeating the mistake or make new ones. This gives rise to guilty feeling to such a level that we fall in frustration. The frustration is because despite us
32:12not wanting to do the mistake, we end up repeating it. Maulana my question is what should we do? It gives a feeling that we all are useless." bhai yeh toh apne hi ko karna hai. dekhen main jab naujawan tha, naujwani kon mein, hum rehte the zamindar family mein. is zamane mein zamindar ka malik hota tha. is zamane mein toh main ne ek ek dalit ko jis ko is zamane mein chuhar kehte the,
32:50main didde se maar diya. maar diya. toh us ke baad mere andar repeatness aaya ke maine us ko mara. toh main us ke ghar ko talash karte karte us ke ghar pohancha. us ke ghar pohancha. Nawada is gaon ka naam tha. aur woh Bawri ke ghar rehta tha. ja ke maine us ka darwaza khatkhataya. woh nikla toh maine poocha ke bhai dekho falan mauqe par maine tum ko maar diya tha. main us ki maafi mangne ke liye aaya hoon tumhare paas.
33:29toh uska raaz dekhen kya hai? yeh yeh kahan hai sahib yeh ayat? Surah Nisa. Bahut ba-maani ayat hai yeh. Tauba qareeb. yani der aap agar aap der ki aap ne to dheere dheere woh aap ke mind mein woh mit jaye ga. Aap sensitive nahi rahenge is ke liye. Ke jaise hi aap ko ghalti ka ehsas hua, foran ke foran aap usi ko us ki tahlfi ke liye doriye.
34:09Tauba qareeb ka tareeqa ikhtiyar kijiye. Log jo hain tauba baeed mein phanse hue hain. Ke kar len ge, kar len ge, kar len ge. To tab tak woh mind mein woh cheez oujhal ho jati hai. To main samajhta hoon ke har aadmi jo yeh shikayat karta ho To us ko yahi karna chahiye ke tauba qareeb. Tab yeh cheez khatam hogi. Nagpur se Muhammad Irfan Rashidi sahib ne comment bheja hai.
34:49Unhon ne likha hai: "Choti choti misalon se badi badi baatein akhaz karna Maulana sahib yeh aap hi ka wasf hai. Sherwani ki misal se aap ne bataya ke humein kis tarah apna tazkiya karna chahiye. Jazak Allah Maulana sahib." Maulana agla sawal Muradabad se bheja hai Abdul Aziz sahib ne.